I was Red
Now I'm Black
All Black
I'm drained
Lonely
Unknowing of my own feelings
Or lack thereof
These walls keep growing
And I'm looking up
They are all up there
And they don't know I'm gone
Nobody asks "Where's Tom?"
Because I'm never there
Even when I am
Alone
Yet crowded
Lost around all those I love
It hurts to care
Since caring causes pain
What do I feel?
Will I ever be whole?
Will my caring ever stop hurting
Those I love
I'm trapped in my insecurities
Somebody help me.
To have loved and lost... by red-dragonfire, literature
Literature
To have loved and lost...
Aye, there was once a dear old lad
to live just yonder, on bay.
As posh and grande a life he had,
but still he cried, by dark of day.
To have loved and lost is to still have loved,
but 'ere this lad had none.
A lass he knew fit like a glove,
Alas, no love 'fore she had gone.
So then one night, 'twas Halloween,
he gave himself to the great Eire.
Hoping, sinced in life no love was seen,
in death may he find his fire.
To have loved and lost is to have felt a part,
A life is no life without a Heart.
To Walk along a shore by red-dragonfire, literature
Literature
To Walk along a shore
To walk along the broken shores
Of a life so lived like mine
One will find a shore so perfect
It could only be the memory of love
Not just any love, but your
So pure and untouched
But to walk along further one would find
A path unable to be tread
It's a time of loss, the loss of you
That brought a life that seemed a waste
A life so torn I sought an end
But though 'twas love that brought me down
'Twas love that brought me back
Love that could only be from a soul so pure
It could only be You.
Why do you make me feel
Like I'm only good
For roses from steel?
I'm more than that
But you'll never see
Where my rose lies at
You think I'm okay,
That I'm only heartless
And that's how I'll stay
But I'm really broken
And insecure
From your words unspoken
And I cry for home
Tears on my face
Cause I'm all alone.
You don't see me try.
You think I'm so bad,
That I only lie
But I wanna live
And I'll have a life
If you'd only give
Me a chance
That's all I ask
Just one chance. . .
I'll take the double cheese
Sloppily assembled
To express where I fit
And some large fries
To watch them bleed
And hear them scream
"Not me! Not me!"
Too hot or too cold
I don't care
Most of them will only get thrown
Food for the white ravens
Away from the sea
And that reminds me
I'll take a drink
With too much ice
And a forgotten straw
You'll charge me too much
And return the wrong change
But I'm outside in my car
And the window is too small
For me to jump through
And show you how I feel
About the vat of grease you work at
So you hand me my food
With a plastic smile
And say, "have a nice day!"
Like you actually care
I'm Red for the tears
that I cry
in my room for the rose
that is bruised
and the petals that drip
drip
drip
drip
drip
Drip from the steel
thorns of your love
or unlove and lust
or unlust and greed
So I'm Red roses
You pull from my wrists
and the spiralling down
down
down
down
Into oblivion
I'm Red 'cause of you
and the pai
To spin 'round and 'round
Not a care in the world,
Is to live all alone.
If only I cared,
Those summer days long ago,
I'd not be alone.
But I wanted to break free
Of the structure guiding me
Only to be lost and alone
Spinning 'round and 'round
So now I live a life
A single day at a time
Structured, and at home.
What is this?
That we must live ignorant lives
Oblivious to our immediate surroundings
What is this?
That we sit twiddling our proverbial thumbs
Waiting for an answer to a question
Asked years ago
What is this?
Why must the thinkers be shunned?
Those with different opinions labeled as outcasts
Their voices won't be heard
What is this?
why must society be forced into a feudal system
Of which the rich grow richer
And the poor stay oppressed
What is this?
This is what IS and will never change
This is the backbone of what we call existance
This is life
I didn't look back,
I didn't want to.
I just kept walking
Down the road.
The same road that brought me here
Half-asleep,
Hand-cuffed,
I didn't care.
Down the road.
The same one that burnt me,
An inexperienced roller-blader.
I fell down.
I didn't care.
Down the road.
The same one that held me standing there
Heartbroken
Crying
She didn't care.
Down the road.
The same road that leads me now,
running away from pain
Until it shows me I CAN change thing
As long as I care.
Thank you road.
I looked up in the sky one late afternoon
And I saw a plane fly through the dust and the gloom
And i saw a little girl looking out the window
She's moving with her family but she's all alone
Dressed in black, she's only twelve years old
Nose pierced, heavy black eyeshadow
Somethin's wrong with her life: she worships death
So young, So angry, she's built up a rep
For slitting her wrist's and slashing her arms
And cursing, adn setting off fire alarms
She's running
She's crying
She hates life
And they say that these things are only a fad
What about death, is that only a fad?
What about pain, depression, suicide?
Is it all a fad u
You helped me change now lead me through
this unseen path in the shadows of
light that has me
trapped in a vicious cycle
spiraling up and down in a beautiful
storm of negativity.
im trapped in the blinding light of
my own mistakes moving forward
only to go in circles and
the doors arent labeled so i push when i should
pull strings and accept the help of the happy
scowls that structure me.
sedated by the pain i've caused and
fueled by the sorrow,
I slipped and hit my head against
a giant's doorstep to see myself
staringdown at my next meal,
a lonely little boy so consumed by past that
tomorrow
happened yesterday
and today
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Ugh, I've been working at KFC and it is sooo demanding and FILTHY! I'm also very sick and don't know when I'll get better, or if I'll get better. So I've been feeling like shit everyday. Thanx for listening to me whining.
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Tommy.
Hi friends on dev art! I've been gone for a really long time. Now that I'm back I promise more stuff to all my friends on dev. art!
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There's only 286 days until I turn 18! I already know my dad's gonna kick me out of the house... lonely... on the streets... sad :sadangel:... that will be the day that I die as myself (Tom Wright) and re-awaken as something new! (Red Dragonfire) I just need to hang in there until then...